Black and White. Believer and Nonbeliever. Ignorance and
education. Life and Death. And the Sunset Limited*.
I wonder ...
“I don't believe in God. Can you understand that? Look
around you man. Cant you see? The clamor and din of those in torment has to be
the sound most pleasing to his ear. And I loathe these discussions. The
argument of the village atheist whose single passion is to revile endlessly
that which he denies the existence of in the first place. Your fellowship is a
fellowship of pain and nothing more. And if that pain were actually collective
instead of simply reiterative then the sheer weight of it would drag the world from
the walls of the universe and send it crashing and burning through whatever
night it might yet be capable of engendering until it was not even ash. And
justice? Brotherhood? Eternal life? Good god, man. Show me a religion that
prepares one for death. For nothingness. There's a church I might enter. Yours
prepares one only for more life. For dreams and illusions and lies. If you
could banish the fear of death from men's hearts they wouldnt live a day. Who
would want this nightmare if not for fear of the next? The shadow of the axe
hangs over every joy. Every road ends in death. Or worse. Every friendship.
Every love. Torment, betrayal, loss, suffering, pain, age, indignity, and
hideous lingering illness. All with a single conclusion. For you and for every
one and everything that you have chosen to care for. There's the true
brotherhood. The true fellowship. And everyone is a member for life. You tell
me that my brother is my salvation? My salvation? Well then damn him. Damn him
in every shape and form and guise. Do I see myself in him? Yes. I do. And what
I see sickens me. Do you understand me? Can you understand me?”
*"The historical Sunset Limited was a transcontinental
train that crossed the American south from Atlantic to Pacific. Metaphorically,
to ride the sunset limited is to take the mythic train west, to go to the
western wall, to sail over the edge of the world" - CormacMcCarthy.com.
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